Friday, June 12, 2015

I can't believe she said that!



 My baby sister married a cowboy. They make the cutest couple but anyone who knows my sister, knows she is not a farm girl. Well, she wasn't until now anyway.

  Just to let you know who my sister is here are five fun facts about the baby girl in our family.

1.  My sister has over 50 pairs of shoes.

2.  At 40+ ( I'm not giving her actual age, I'd like her to still like me) she still fits in her jeans from high school.

3. Her biggest fears are tumbleweeds and praying mantis' ( or it is manti?)

4.  When we go camping we call her Barbie, she brings all her makeup and a blow drier.

5.   My sister would never eat food from a food cart.

    Ok, so know you know a little about Angie. Yesterday she called me and said something to me I never thought I would hear.
   
    Angie and her husband have a little farm, pigs and chickens mostly, and lately all their momma pigs have been having babies like crazy. When their first momma pig ( Loretta )died while having babies my sister swore she wanted nothing more to do with the farm. This was about six or so months ago.

   You can imagine my surprise when she called to tell me about the momma that couldn't get the piglet out so she went to help because she has the smallest hands. Wait....what?

   That's when she said it  "Sister, I was elbow deep in a pigs vagina."

   There are no words, and every time I think of her saying that I start laughing, even in the middle of the grocery store.

    I love my sisters, they definitely keep things interesting!

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Today is all we have

   I recently quit my job. Go me! Probably not the smartest thing I've ever done but I did it. I worked for the same company for almost 9 years, in dog years I should be retired. I loved my job for a long time and then I realized one day that I didn't anymore.

  I still went in everyday, did my job, like always, but something was missing. Passion, drive, fire, whatever you want to call it, was gone.

  I tried to get it back but the reality is, once it's gone, it's time to move on. I had a boss once who told me there are two kinds of people who quit jobs, those who quit and leave, and those who quit and stay. I didn't want to be a staying quitter.

  Now I've known myself for a long time and one thing I know is that I like security. Why would I leave a perfectly good job for another one that might not be as good? I talked about leaving for over a year, I searched for jobs, even went on a few interviews but always found a reason to stay.

  The reason was security. So what if I'm not passionate about this anymore, the bills are being paid so keep on keeping on, don't rock the boat, sit down and shut up. So I quit my job.

  I knew in order to make a change I would have to force my hand. Now I have to find another job, I have to start over somewhere new, and maybe it won't work out, but  maybe it will.

   After I gave my notice one of my coworkers was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. She was 32. One of the last conversations I had with her she apologized for missing so much work. Her cancer was diagnosed on May 13th, she had surgery to remove a mass on May 18th, she was sent home on hospice on May 26th and passed away on June 2nd.

   At work we talked about what we could do for her and her family. As much as I wanted the opportunity to see her one last time, I didn't go. I thought, if I knew death was coming I would not want to spend one second with anyone but those I love.

   You know what? Death is coming. Maybe not as quickly as it did for my friend but we still have a finite number of days. I don't want to give those away.

   I will find another job, and I'll be good at it but because of my sweet friend I will remember what is really important. I will spend time with the people I love, do things that bring me joy, give to everyone I possibly can, and truly be present in my life.

   I hope that April's death reminds everyone that all we have is today, so make it everything you can.

Monday, June 8, 2015

Well hello stranger

I realize that I have not written here in FOREVER and  that you may not love me anymore but I'm going to write anyway.

I've made some huge changes in my life and I need to share them. I've actually been living instead of just existing. I don't currently have a job but I'm not letting that stop me.

I've been spending my time with the people I love, doing things that I love and it feels wonderful.

I'm off to a funeral for a lovely woman who was taken much too soon. I'll write more tomorrow, in the meantime, here is a picture of my lovely world.''