Tuesday, January 14, 2014

I realize I still have stuff to say... I hope someone is still listening

  For a long time I stopped blogging.  When my friend Krissy died blogging started to feel so narcissistic. I started thinking that other people had real problems, real things going on in their lives and here I am writing this little blog about my life. What am I doing?

  Blogging felt selfish and self centered. I was upset with myself for not doing anything important, so I pretty much stopped blogging.

   Well, I'm still pushing myself to do more, to be more, to help more, to stop thinking that life is all about me. But I like blogging. I like writing, I like reading what other people write, I like commenting and reading comments. I like getting to know people that I would otherwise have never met.

  So I'm back, again. I'm changing things a little, I was so over all that pink. I like the new colors, it feels kind of retro, like my kitchen, and like what I'm looking for in my life.

   I've worked so many hours a day for so many years that I'm looking for a way to slow that down. To find something I love to do instead of something that pays the bills. It would be wonderful if that thing would allow me to give to others at the same time.

   In the meantime I'm putting a strong defining line between my job and my life. My job is not who I am, so who am I? I started this blog with that very same question, and I'm still searching. Hopefully, I'll figure it out, or at least find some beauty in the journey.

4 comments:

  1. I'm still listening - and yes you have plenty to say that I'd like to hear.

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  2. Thanks Gigi, some people you can always count on!

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  3. Well, I only discovered your blog this month, but I'm listening. I like what you have to say. I loved blogging when I started and then I don't know what happened, but I kind of gave up. And that made me sad. It's nice to be back and while it's nice to know people are listening, it's also nice to write for oneself or just because.

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    1. I am so glad you found me. I do write for myself but at the same time it is wonderful to feel like I am having a conversation with people about the things that rattle around in my head!

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