Friday, June 12, 2015

I can't believe she said that!

 My baby sister married a cowboy. They make the cutest couple but anyone who knows my sister, knows she is not a farm girl. Well, she wasn't until now anyway.

  Just to let you know who my sister is here are five fun facts about the baby girl in our family.

1.  My sister has over 50 pairs of shoes.

2.  At 40+ ( I'm not giving her actual age, I'd like her to still like me) she still fits in her jeans from high school.

3. Her biggest fears are tumbleweeds and praying mantis' ( or it is manti?)

4.  When we go camping we call her Barbie, she brings all her makeup and a blow drier.

5.   My sister would never eat food from a food cart.

    Ok, so know you know a little about Angie. Yesterday she called me and said something to me I never thought I would hear.
    Angie and her husband have a little farm, pigs and chickens mostly, and lately all their momma pigs have been having babies like crazy. When their first momma pig ( Loretta )died while having babies my sister swore she wanted nothing more to do with the farm. This was about six or so months ago.

   You can imagine my surprise when she called to tell me about the momma that couldn't get the piglet out so she went to help because she has the smallest hands. Wait....what?

   That's when she said it  "Sister, I was elbow deep in a pigs vagina."

   There are no words, and every time I think of her saying that I start laughing, even in the middle of the grocery store.

    I love my sisters, they definitely keep things interesting!

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Today is all we have

   I recently quit my job. Go me! Probably not the smartest thing I've ever done but I did it. I worked for the same company for almost 9 years, in dog years I should be retired. I loved my job for a long time and then I realized one day that I didn't anymore.

  I still went in everyday, did my job, like always, but something was missing. Passion, drive, fire, whatever you want to call it, was gone.

  I tried to get it back but the reality is, once it's gone, it's time to move on. I had a boss once who told me there are two kinds of people who quit jobs, those who quit and leave, and those who quit and stay. I didn't want to be a staying quitter.

  Now I've known myself for a long time and one thing I know is that I like security. Why would I leave a perfectly good job for another one that might not be as good? I talked about leaving for over a year, I searched for jobs, even went on a few interviews but always found a reason to stay.

  The reason was security. So what if I'm not passionate about this anymore, the bills are being paid so keep on keeping on, don't rock the boat, sit down and shut up. So I quit my job.

  I knew in order to make a change I would have to force my hand. Now I have to find another job, I have to start over somewhere new, and maybe it won't work out, but  maybe it will.

   After I gave my notice one of my coworkers was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. She was 32. One of the last conversations I had with her she apologized for missing so much work. Her cancer was diagnosed on May 13th, she had surgery to remove a mass on May 18th, she was sent home on hospice on May 26th and passed away on June 2nd.

   At work we talked about what we could do for her and her family. As much as I wanted the opportunity to see her one last time, I didn't go. I thought, if I knew death was coming I would not want to spend one second with anyone but those I love.

   You know what? Death is coming. Maybe not as quickly as it did for my friend but we still have a finite number of days. I don't want to give those away.

   I will find another job, and I'll be good at it but because of my sweet friend I will remember what is really important. I will spend time with the people I love, do things that bring me joy, give to everyone I possibly can, and truly be present in my life.

   I hope that April's death reminds everyone that all we have is today, so make it everything you can.

Monday, June 8, 2015

Well hello stranger

I realize that I have not written here in FOREVER and  that you may not love me anymore but I'm going to write anyway.

I've made some huge changes in my life and I need to share them. I've actually been living instead of just existing. I don't currently have a job but I'm not letting that stop me.

I've been spending my time with the people I love, doing things that I love and it feels wonderful.

I'm off to a funeral for a lovely woman who was taken much too soon. I'll write more tomorrow, in the meantime, here is a picture of my lovely world.''

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Online dating, or how much do I hate myself

 In my quest to find what is missing in my life, I've decided to try online dating again. First I have to say, I hate it so that probably colors my perception of it. Online dating is only slightly less irritating than a bikini wax and almost as embarrassing as a pelvic exam.

  I hate dating people I don't know. Oxymoron I know, you have to date people you don't know because  the people you know are either married already or too weird to date. So how do you meet people? Why a dating website of course.

   So I signed up for a dating website. I put together a somewhat amusing profile, posted some pictures from this century and waited.

   I didn't have to wait long, apparently these people are even more desperate than I am. I always respond to everyone who takes the time to email me, it's the polite thing to do, but some people make me question why I respond.

   I like to think I am a fairly articulate person, at the very least I like to talk so my responses are rarely one word. Below is an actual conversation I had on this website. I should have known when I saw his user name was Sultryknight but I gave him the benefit of the doubt.

    Sultryknight: Wow
    Me: Thanks, I think. So tell me about your unusual hobbies. ( his profile said he has lots of hobbies, several of them unusual and he invites you to ask about them)
    Sultryknight: I study languages.
    Me: That is pretty unusual. How did you get interested in languages? Do you study one language or multiple ones? Which languages do you study and can you speak them all or do you just study the composition?
    Sultryknight: 7 languages
     Me: (I'm getting a little frustrated, I expected more give and take from a man who studies languages) You are a man of few words.
    Sultyknight: Breathless from your pics
    Me: And possibly full of shit
    Sultyknight: not at all
I deleted him after that. I tried to correspond with him but that really wasn't my idea of a conversation.

Then a gentleman contacted me and his user name was wordnerd- as a book worm and lover of conversation I was again excited at the prospect of having a conversation with someone. I was once again disappointed.

 His side of the conversation looked like this:
  Doin good!!!!
  Just left the gym!!!!!
  Nite nite!!!!!!!
 Busy, busy day!!!!!!

  I don't think I've used that many exclamation points in a year. Why would you chose wordnerd as your user name if you are not a nerdy user of words?

   I'm really disappointed. I know it's hard to express who you are in an online profile but I also think if it's important to you then you will make an effort.

   If you are over 50 years old  and really want to meet someone please don't list your interests as "chillaxing."

   The optimist in me says keep plugging along, you never know when you will meet that special someone. The bitch in me says, the hell with this, I don't want to be anyone's QWEEN.


Tuesday, February 11, 2014

I like the Olympics, gay or straight

I had written a lovely little rant about intolerance and hate. I decided not to post it. I don't want to beat you over the head with my beliefs any more than I want you to beat me over the head with yours.

Let's just say I love the Canadian Olympic commercial and I hope that all people will one day have the same rights. 


Monday, February 10, 2014

Into each life a little rain must fall, or some crap like that

  Last week was a little crazy. Since Hailey moved home I am finally finishing the upstairs so there is plenty of room for her and the baby. This means that the room I tore apart four years ago will finally be a real bedroom again!

  Joe is doing a great job and I'm chomping at the bit to get it finished and post pictures of it on my blog. I'm so excited but what is not exciting is the construction dirt. The walls in that room had to be sanded and textured, a lot! Poor Joe! That was a lot of work! And now, the whole house is coated with a white film and everything is gritty. I can't wait for it to be done so I can clean the house.

   On top of the construction we are having a bit of a pre spring thaw. It's been in the forties, raining a little, the snow is melting, birds are singing and my backyard is full of mud and dog poop. Since it's raining I can't clean up the dog poop.

   So now my house is full of drywall dust, mud and dog poop. Yay me, hopefully soon, the upstairs will be done, the house will be clean, the yard will dry out and I will find my sanity somewhere under all the crafty things we are doing for Hailey's baby shower.


Friday, February 7, 2014

Homemade housewarming gifts

   One of my resolutions this year is to give more handmade gifts. I want to give a piece of my heart with every gift I give. Sometimes it's not possible, but when it is, I want to do it.

    I know two people who are moving into new places so that means housewarming gifts. I was going to run to the store and put together a basket of kitchen towels, candles, spices, maybe a plant. Then  I remembered my resolution.

    Sometimes it's hard to give handmade gifts because not everyone appreciates them, but I took a chance and I'm glad I did.

    One of the people moving is my niece Kayla. Kay is newly married and has the cutest little boy. She is very conscientious about what she feeds her family and the things they are exposed to, I knew she would appreciate an all natural gift.

   After some web searching I decided to make a gift for them that I already use and love, laundry sauce. A while ago I started making my own laundry detergent. When you look at the ingredients in regular detergent, it's not hard to make the decision to go homemade.

   Making your own laundry detergent is not only cheaper and healthier, it's better for your skin and the environment.

   I've tried several different recipes for homemade laundry detergent and while I liked the detergent I didn't like having a five gallon bucket of detergent in my laundry room. I kept searching and found one that I like and is super concentrated., Mom's Super Laundry Sauce. It's quick, easy, smells wonderful and you can store 128 load of laundry sauce in two quart mason jars.

    I didn't really make any changes other than instead of grating my soap I cut it in chunks and heated it in the microwave instead. I love when the soap gets fluffy, plus it's easier than all that grating, just heat if for 30 seconds at a time until it's all fluffy then let it cool and crumble it in the boiling water.

    The website even has cute little tags you can print off, then all you have to do is grab some ribbon and your gift is complete.

  We were out of homemade laundry detergent and Hailey needed to wash some baby clothes so she ran out and bought some Dreft to wash his clothes in. I was floored. First of all, it was $12 for 32 loads of laundry and has almost an identical ingredient list to other "non baby" laundry detergents, including fragrance.

     The homemade detergent has three ingredients, no fragrance and costs about $1.76 for 128 loads. Glad we have this option for washing anything that will be next to that sweet baby's skin.